Sitting here thinking where to begin. If you follow the Couch family you know our days are full of laughter, vacations, Christ, homeschooling, and living the life God has planned out for us. So I will begin
To start one year ago we saw our family as complete the way God intended it to be Jacob 5 and Lu 3, life was getting well EASY. When we started to get in our comfort spot God began to work on our hearts in a very powerful way. Bringing up to each other that God was secretly speaking to us both about growing our family, something we both agreed that we were done with. When we finally opened up our hearts to possibly listen to Gods words we were scared and excited to possibly grow our family even though it was something we had buried.
On July 13th we found out that we were expecting our 3rd child I was 6 weeks pregnant and feeling it long before the test ever tested positive. Lu was well EXCITED to have a baby. She wanted to buy everything in sight for "our baby" as she called it. Jacob was just praying for a brother.
We went for our appointment and everything was great, our due date would be late March but we would have to deliver early as the doctor had explained to us before due to the babies large sizes (Jacob was 10.1 and Lu was three weeks early at 8.6). We all started to dream and plan how this new person was going to mesh with our tight knit 4 some:)
But God had a different plan......
At eight weeks pregnant we found out the baby had passed away there was no heart beat. We laid there quietly looking at the ultrasound monitor and secretly praying and cheering the baby on to start beating. We saw those sweet little arms and body and head and there it was the motionless heart. I felt the doctor frantically looking not wanting to give up on us. The one that had been there for the first miscarriage, the one who had held up our beautiful baby boy, and the one who brought our sweet baby girl into this world had to now tell us that baby #4 had passed away.
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| This photo was taken after a big storm right from our balcony. We see it as God's promise to always walk along with us. |
He left us alone to compose ourselves to face this together to see disappointment in Davids eyes. David says now that he has two babies it makes it harder because he knows what a joy they are. The doctor returned after what seemed forever. He began to explain our options, the baby was full grown to eight weeks and he offered to give it time but felt my body may not absorb it. He was so gentle in explaining what will happen to me and our baby and what to expect.
When we set down with the kids we explained that our baby had went to Heaven and Lu's first question was "can we get another one?" and mommy "trust in God" what they had been hearing at VBS all week. God bless our little ones they were so great understanding God's peace and how mommy was going to heal and that as a family we would "trust in God".
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